Big D’s brother-in-law just left his sister, and Big D’s going through this really hard time with it. It’s tough on me too, because I know that to him, they were almost the epitome of romance. They met in high school or something, and got married at 20, had a couple of cute kids… moved into a great house. I think he’s lost his faith in love, somewhat, since his parents and his sister are now essentially divorced. In a strange way, this makes me breathe a sigh of relief… we would have probably ended up dysfunctional too.
What I can’t handle, however, is the fact that I just can’t fucking get over him. It’s come to a point where I don’t even want to get back together… but.. yeah. He can not e-mail me or call me for an entire month, and I’d be perfectly fine and bam. One short e-mail is enough to begin the cycle again. I can’t help but read them (twice. and then once again.) and write him back because I have this incredible weakness.
I’ve thought about not ever getting over him. Fuck that shit.
EDIT: Turns out, he probably only e-mailed me because he had a hard time going through the whole divorce/separation thing… It gets to me every time when he e-mails me frequently and suddenly stops.
